First of all I apologise for not taking a full and active part in ICLW. I’ve not been feeling myself. In fact I have been feeling extremely miserable. Wednesday was probably my worst day. I don’t know why but I just cried all day. I cried when I woke up, I cried silently at my desk, I then excused myself to the loo and cried there. I then called my sister at lunch and cried by the river. Finally I cried when I got off the train from work and saw BC coming down the road towards me, I was happy to see him.
I’m not sure why I feel so sad. There’s been no major changes really. I just have an ovewhelming feeling of sadness. It’s not even there all the time so that when I get a little happy I somehow get guilty for betraying my sadness. It’s hard to explain really but I thought I would try to apologise.
I’m feeling a little better today. I spent some time with my mom and sisters yesterday. Saw my sisters new flat and did a little essentials shopping. I felt better for having seeing them but left no time to blog. I’m currently sharing my desk in the afternoons and its been busy.
Hope to update soon and hope you all understand.