Finally moving forward


Hello all. I am back in this space in what seems like forever but I have better news. We were finally referred to the Fertility Clinic and had our first appointment with the FS yesterday. I wasn’t going to start writing here again, but BC kept mentioning it was sitting here empty so I thought I’d tell you about our FS visit. So you have him to thank for my reappearance!

The doc, lets call him Dr Pink, confirmed what we already knew. I have severe PCOS, but also I have very good egg reserves and BC has a more than adequate sperm count. We forgot to ask about motility though. For now I think the less we think about it the better, all that matters is the sample was good.

Dr Pink is very, very nice. He’s thoughtful, tried to make us feel as relaxed as possible and was very thorough. He understands we’re on a tight budget and is willing to work with us which is nice. He’s prescribed Norethisterone to induce a period (It’s been 15 month since my last one NOMG) and then he’s recommended 6 rounds of Clomid. This is what we wanted. It was our best case scenario. If at all possible I’d like to avoid having the HCG trigger but if we must, we must.

Weirdly though, on getting back from the clinic. What do you know I’m spotting bright pinky blood? WTF?? I don’t know for sure it’s AF showing her face but I’ve had barely anything since. No idea what it is. I shall keep a check on it. 

I will probably start the Norethisterone end December to middle of January so I can ovulate sometimes in February  Hopefully giving the clinic a chance to calm down after the holidays and then it’s just a waiting game. Hopefully by July we should have made progress, a little bundle of progress.

It’s exciting and terrifying at the same time. Most of our family and friends know we’re having treatment. It makes it much easier, people know about it. It also means this blog doesn’t have to be anonymous any more.


Life is hard

Really and truthfully I have no interest in sharing my feelings on this blog anymore. It feels like im at a stale mate. Unable to move forward and uncomfortable where I am.

Work is hard too, all day long I speak to mainly new mothers and fathers and feign happiness at them being able to produce offspring. Now obviously I don’t know how they got there, and maybe that’s why it’s so hard to deal with.

Since I don’t even think anyone reads this blog, I am thinking of making it more of a personal diary and password protecting it. If I should do that and you would like the password please comment below.

Thanks for reading.

Whatever you like Wednesday: work and play

Today I thought I would tell you guys a bit more about my new job. It’s been about 6 weeks now and it’s been going ok. I really do enjoy it, the only thing is that it’s evening work. So I mostly don’t get home till nine thirty each night and work weekends too. I’m not sure it’s going to work for us as a family. Which is a shame because as I said I enjoy it! I was hoping that maybe it would even out a little but so far not so much. I try to fill my evenings just hanging out and any days off are spent cleaning. Not very exciting home life, in fact more often than not I miss work on my days off! Especially on my week days off when the hubkins isn’t there all day.

So what I thought I would do is maybe have a weekend away with the hubby to reevaluate how things are going, good idea? I think so. Will be scouting the internet for good deals. It always helps to add a little play to lift the mood!


On my way to work on the DLR. Mobile post.

First Vlog of the Year

There’s a new vlog on my channel but realised I have no idea how to embed videos so here’s hoping this works lol.

I spent all day Wednesday trying to record properly and then upload this so hence no Whatever You Like Wednesday post. Appologies for that but you got a video instead :).

Off I pop, to the docs

I woke up super early this morning but it’s a good thing. I need to go doctors and my doctor is only in weekday mornings this week, so need to be first in to get an appointment! I feel like I had a good rest though unlike the last few nights where I have had really random dreams. Creepy random dreams, I dreamt I was trying to cook something and the hob started to grow weird tentacles out of each ring I turned on. I was most frustrated I couldn’t get a pan to sit on top! Bizarre right?

Today is my Friday though and I have 2 days off in a row. Yay! Chillout time! Will be able to let you know what went on at the doctors tomorrow.


Totally unrelated photo of longan which is my new face fruit. Thanks L x

Playing catch up

Yet another friend is expecting their second child while I’m still waiting for my first to get on in there. It seems they are all popping out in blog and vlog land too, with 1st and 2nd children galore. I feel a bit numb to it to be honest. I am in no man’s land at the moment. Still not got my referral, although of course I have had the preliminary tests done already. Also, I doubt I will get up in time to go to the doctors tomorrow so it will have to be later on in the week. I’ve no idea how long it will take the referral to come through but hoping we get it soon!

I have 2 days off mid-week this week (woohoo!) and I’m going to treat myself to a few new bits for work etc and hopefully cheer myself up a bit. Maybe even do some sewing since I’ve not done any for months! I’m thankfull for a short week in any case.

Ooh and I found another blogger and vlogger, Lara,  from the UK at  Conceiving Baby Ojo. I’m so excited to see another UK blogger out there and it inspires me to write here more, in the hopes that more will pop out eventually!

Hopefully my blankie is dry so I can go get comfy in bed and catch up on my youtube subs.


I’m good

I’m trying to be good and keep you guys up to date with regular posts but it’s kinda hard when nothing is going on. I really am all good though. AF will show her face at some point, couldn’t get a doctors appointment till next week, so nothin’ to update on that yet but work is good!

I’ll  be sure to update as soon as anything starts happening though xD.

Back to our scheduled programming

So I am back. A lot of things have happened since October so I will fill you in. We went on a few short breaks, Hastings was lovely, had a big family Christmas finally, started a vlog, stopped doing a vlog and finally and probably more importantly, got married! Shortly after that I got a new phone (Yes!! Samsung Galaxy Sii, I love you), started a new job and here we are today.

AF is still MIA which has kind of quelled my enthusiasm for charting and such but I have been keeping up with my weight loss efforts. I’ve been watching my portion sizes, making sure I stop eating when I am full and drinking extra fluids, mainly water, to get up to 2 litres a day. It’s been tough but I am sticking with it and it’s working 2 weeks ago I was 3lbs from my goal BMI and I actually think I have since met my goal but I only get weighed at the doctors office. I’m planning a trip to the doctors next week and assuming I have hit my goal getting a referral letter back to the fertility clinic. Both BC and I are very keen to start a family now that we are married. 

So I guess this blog comes back into play once I get my referral as then I’ll actually have something interesting to say. I am sure watching out for AF each week would have been riveting xD. I’d also like to upload videos to my blog, just once a week as I had been doing on YT but that’s assuming I can get them to be a bit quicker to upload. Now I am working I just don’t have time! I can blog a bit easier now though, since I have an Android phone and there’s a WordPress app.

Speaking of working, as I said I have a new job! I’m now a charity fundraiser. It’s still early days and I am unsure if it will work out but I really do love working there. They are really great people!

I hope those that are still reading this are doing well and hopefully any new guys too.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Wo-man flu

I have flu and a sinus infection and basically feel like crap. I feel pretty bad cos I haven’t been able to do much lately, though I have been keeping up with my job search and have had a few interviews (yay!) but didn’t get any of the jobs (boo!). Mostly though just trying to sort out the flat is exhausting me. We decided that we’d like to get a 5 day lodger to help out with the bills till I find something. So I have been trying to clear and redistribute the crap that’s in the spare room. Those of you who have crafting tendencies will realise, you accumulate a lot of stuff. I sew, crochet, knit, paper craft, bake and many more things I can’t think of right now and I have all the trappings. So the spare room is clear but everywhere else looks like a bomb hit it! I think I’ve got it figured out though. I will rearrange some things and it will work. I just have to feel well enough to do it.

I’ve also been doing some secret crafting but because I’ve been sick on and off for a month (and I never craft when I’m sicksomething about sewing germs into something seems wrong), it’s taking too long and I fear I am going to have to come clean and tell otherwise the giftee might think I’ve gone a bit crazy. It promises to be really cute, though time consuming!

Ok, gotta go wake up BC. Have a great day people.